Court Outcome

Well, I wish there was better news. I can't share too much but court took a different turn and I am trying to remember why... Maybe it was because the potential biological father was there and his paternity test was not yet available, but they decided to discuss the visitation issue instead of terminating parental rights.
I took the stand for about 20 minutes and then we broke for lunch. We returned at 1:45 did not reenter the court room until 3:45 and we were finished at 4:30. Lets just say it was not a productive day and we left very frustrated. The next day I was cross examined and Ryan took the stand for a bit. The father did not like how his attorney cross examined us so they had us all leave while they had a pow wow. They parted ways, so after almost 3 years and being on the last hearing, he was appointed a new attorney and that was it for the day. Well, almost....if you remember the visits were dramatically reduced pending the hearing. But we weren't able to finish the hearing because of the new attorney, so they went back and forth and the judge changed the order to increase visitation to one 8 hour visit per month. I have to tell you that we are disgusted with that outcome but even worse was the antics and disruptions in the court room that were allowed. I don't ever want to go back because it makes me so very discouraged. The next date is mid-May and Ryan has been called back to be cross examined. Feels like this really isn't ever going to end :(.
We are looking at having the court appoint us an attorney but if there's a cost involved we will not take that option due to the fact that this may go on for many years and could very well bankrupt us. Other than that, I guess we just be patient and pray A LOT!!!!  I am very glad that there are so many other poisitive things in our lives that we can focus on. We did go home on Friday with a new appreciation for our kids and especially cuddly appreciation for our children and especially Khalif, so there is good that comes from bad....we just have to be aware and look for it :).